Cancer. Divorce. Death.
The things that we fear;
the things that grieve our hearts
and plague our human race.
They are hard to talk about,
and even harder to experience.

Two weeks ago my dad underwent surgery for a small tumor they had found in a routine check-up and we sat wondering if this was return of a cancer he fought 30 years ago. A few days later my heart was torn as I watched a sister miscarry her 12 week old baby. Another few days and my heart would break once again as my friend received the news her parents would be divorcing after 30 years of marriage… It was a lot to take in. People I loved were hurting.

Then we got the call. Grandma was being taken to the hospital. And forty-eight hours later I watched her leave us. Harder than I could have ever imagined, we sat watching her body shut down, her breathing slow, until the moment she passed. Tears flooded my eyes and my heart filled with memories of our adventures together. It was her after all, who took me on my first adventure when I was seven years old, sparking a flame in me for travel and people that has yet to be extinguished… I will forever be grateful.

Two weeks. How fast and how slow it has felt.

Cancer. Divorce. Death. The things that we fear; the things that grieve our hearts and plague our human race. They are hard to talk about, and even harder to experience. And in the past 14 days they have flooded my world in an extremely personal way. Yet I sit here and write to you, hard-pressed on every side yet not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair… There is joy and a peace running deep in my soul. Rather than being completely overwhelmed, my heart bursts to share with you that there is hope even amongst the most dire of circumstances! God is deeply relational and walks hand-in-hand with us through every single moment. I KNOW because I’ve EXPERIENCED it first hand in the past two weeks. He created and knows every fiber of my being. He knows the things I fear; the things that grieve my heart and plague my soul. When I cried, He comforted. When I cried again, He comforted more deeply. He brought hope to every single circumstance. And my heart shouts,

He is a God of healing!

He proved that in the love of Christ.

He is a God of restoration!

He proved that in the death of Christ.

He is a God who is greater than death!

He has proved that in the resurrection of Jesus.

Philippians 4:7 says that the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Peace that surpasses all understanding. That is what I’ve experienced these past two weeks. 

I’m not sure where you find yourself today, what struggles you may be going through, but I can promise you there is a God who knows it all. He is a God of healing. He is a God of restoration. He is a God who is greater than death. He loves you so much He sent His son to die for every sin, every pain, every separation, so that you could walk hand-in-hand with Him from this point forward. Don’t do life alone. Have faith in the One who knows you better than you know yourself!

O death where is your victory? O death where is your sting? It has been taken away by Christ and the cross!

grief with hope