“All I have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all I have not seen.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson
Trust has been the theme in the past few days of life. As I was struggling mentally last week, and pretty much stressing myself out in workouts, I forgot what it meant to trust. Trust in God, trust in my coach, and trust in myself. And it hit me, right in the middle of practice, as I was working on getting a new skill: total inversion, that I had been holding something back. I was fighting for control. My coach looked at me and said “you’re just going to have to trust it, it won’t feel natural, it will be scary, but you have to trust it.” So I gathered my thoughts, asked myself “are you going to learn to trust?”, ran down the runway, and jumped… and it was incredible! I loved it! For the first time I got totally inverted, and it didn’t feel natural, and it was a bit scary, but more than either of those feelings it felt FANTASTIC! The world was upside down. It was free. It was fun. It made me smile. Replicating that skill in every jump is going to take time, a lot of time, but it doesn’t matter because I trust that God can make it happen. I felt a feeling I had never felt before, and like many things in life: the un-natural, crazy, scary moves are the ones that usually bring the biggest adventures. And I’m all about adventure. It was as if God was needing me to learn a lesson bigger than the move I needed to make on the pole. He needed to me to see that there are many areas my life where I lack trust, and I only do that which is comfortable. It’s true that we can make certain things happen on our own (or what we perceive to be on our own), but we get to a certain point in whatever we are doing that we simply cannot move forward unless we take a step of faith and trust the thing we cannot see. It’s scary, because sometimes it moves us to “total inversion”, head first towards the ground, and that position (if we stayed there) can leave us hanging or hurt. But Emerson hit the nail on the head when he said that all he had seen taught him to trust the Creator for all he had not seen. God, when asking us to trust, will neither leave us hanging nor hurt. He is faithful. And it’s good to be reminded of that.