From a very young age I desired to be wanted, to be accepted. I was weak, emotionally, and remember oftentimes being teased and called a cry baby. I felt outcasted, just being “not quite good enough” to fit in. I was good at things, but never the best. I was accepted, but never first picked. I had friends, but was the first to be put aside if something or someone better came along. It was crippling me. It was creating feelings of failure and shame. The more I felt unaccepted, the more I desired to be accepted. And it was a never-ending cycle.
Looking back, in some instances I can see that The Lord really protected me from circumstances and friends that would in the long run drive me away from God. Sometimes it was just merely my own perception that I was not accepted, when that was not actually the case. In other cases I believe that an acceptance from a peer would have reemphasized to me that acceptance from God was not truly enough.
God has always called me; even from elementary school I could feel the desire to want to please Him and follow Him, but I never believed He could fill that void of acceptance. I never felt good enough or chosen by Him. I didn’t understand how He would be able to fill something that I thought could only be filled by other physical human beings. But truth is He did choose me. He has shown lovingkindness and acceptance to me. And even more, He had a purpose and a design in creating me exactly the way that I am. He has been so patient with me and I believe His heart broke at the years I walked around not believing, not understanding, His choice to pursue me. But He never gives up. No matter how long or how far we walk away from Him, He will always desire for us to be in relationship with Him*.
In my Bible study this morning there was a line that said this: “Perhaps the most grateful response we could ever offer God for our restoration is to help another be restored.” That is what I want to do with my life. That is the message I want to bring. To help others be restored to God. To know that they are chosen, and sought after, and loved, and created to sit before a king and be accepted. There is someone reading this right now, that needs to know that they are accepted. No person, no friend, no boss, no parent, no child, no boyfriend, no girlfriend will ever fill that void of acceptance. I am testimony for that. I walked around for too long seeking approval for who I am from people who cannot truly give it.
Luke 16:10 “For the Son of Man has come to seek and save the lost…”
To seek you. To save you.
John 15:16 “You did not choose Me, but I chose you…”
To choose you.
1 John 4:19 “We love because He first loved us…”
To love YOU.
Believe today that you are made in the image of God. Believe today that He is enough to fill every void. Believe today that He is seeking you; choosing you; wants to save you; because He loves you. By this the love of God was manifested in us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world so that we might LIVE through Him**.
*2 Peter 3:9
**1 John 4:9